Thank you and I am really happy you like my article. I can't contact people personally but what I can do is try to anwer a question or two that you might have in these comments. Beyond that, mental health is both a personal journey and a journey we may sometimes need help with. It is worth seeking information about your problem, and seeking out some professionals and finding someone who fits you. I'm not qualified to offer professional help, but I can share my thoughts and you can decide for yourself whether they are worth considering. I do sympathise with how you feel, and you're certainly not the only one.